Waiting sucks!

There really is no change for Charlotte today.  She's doing ok, back up to 7cc's of breastmilk now.  I did notice, which I didn't before, that every now and then her heart rate drops.  They are watching her and thinking they want to give her albeuterol, but they can't on the vent she's on.  I guess they are less frequent, but like I said, I've never noticed it at she did it at least 5 times tonight.  It really sucks because for every step forward you take 2 back.  I had a really hard time leaving her tonight.  I just want her safe and at home already.

I did get to change her diaper, check her temp and put her lotion on today.  I loved massaging the lotion into her and I think she liked it as well.  It made my heart melt to be able to rub her like that.  You really can't rub a preemie because their skin is so thin and sensative.  Her midnight nurse, Rachel, whom is her same nurse tonight made her a cute little hat.  It's a tad big, but I don't care it's so cute!  She made one for her other little boy patient too.  I love how the nurses make stuff for the babies.  It's very touching.  Well at least a couple of the nurses we've gotten have.  I want to learn how to do hats so bad so I can make them and donate them to the NICU.  Here's a pic of Miss Charlotte with her new hat :)  Her body looks 2 different colors, but it justs the lighting she really doesn't look like that.  The color around her face is closer to her color.