oops!

Oops!  I'm sure y'all are waiting on an update and I haven't done one in a day or so.  Charlotte is doing GREAT!  She's up to 10cc's on her food and is only on morphine as needed.  As I sat by her bedside today I started to tear up again.  Sometimes it just becomes really overwhelming sitting there watching her and all the alarms from other babies (and hers) going off.  I have no control over it and the faucet just turns on.  I think it makes my husband really confused.  He'll look at me and ask whats wrong and I really don't have answers for him.  9 times out of 10 I have no control over when I start crying.  A mother next to our Charlotte got to hold her little girl today and that made me "jealous" if that's what you wanna call it.  Her baby isn't hooked up to as many tubes and I know I'll be able to hold her soon, but it just seems unfair being in the same phase as us and she gets her to hold her baby and we don't. 

I can't wait to start buying her stuff.  I am going to hopefully try to get her bed in a few weeks.  But what I really should start doing is cleaning out my office since that will be her room.  Blah, that just doesn't sound fun right now lol.